my emotions are the waves of theocean

Hayley Franklin

just when i thought i had it
the ability to navigate
to breathe

i am struck
by the blue, harsh wave

one wave turns into two
then three
i must have blinked–
now there are twenty

the salt burns my nose and throat
the seashells cut my feet
the water pushes me down
i’m drowning in my thoughts

i wait for the ocean to calm
i fight to swim to the top

and when i do
i am numb.

i build myself back up
i work relentlessly

on becoming the girl i was before

and when i do–
i wait

for the waves to come again,
like they always do